b-i-o-d-a-t-a

is realizing how great life is, when you thought it was at its worst.

if that sounds just so cheesy forgive me, as i have a huge giddy crush and it's probably natural

i went to saturna island last night to visit graydon and brianne!
this is sambuca, looking nuts

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these are just from over the last few weeks, no order or anything.. ps guys i wear my hair down now. its sweet

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and i feel like i need to yell at everybody

what do you do when you wake up? turn on the lights. do your "morning routine" and go to school

.. do you turn everything off?

i want to do a survey. out of everybody who answers i'm going to tally up how many people do, don't, and might if motivated.
uhhh i might do this at school as well, to see the difference in results




anyways everything is going pretty well right now
i'm visiting ~*tha boi-ee*~ in spring break and yeah its heeeella exciting.

and tristan i know sometimes it doesn't seem like it but that's because we're both wierd about it
but uh
i love you more than anything in the whole fucking world and i hope you know that

i also had my hair cut
for those of you who haven't seen in person, it's sweeeeet
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i went to cancun for a week.




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Hi everyone, i've changed so much and i don't know if i like it or not.


this is me lately:

"Sashas official list of people she misses as follows,
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa
Karissa"

so. happy holidays to everybody! i am in a great mood and i get to see priya in four days =)
i went to tristan's house today. you are my joyyyy

i love most of you (hah)
and i hope everyone has as good a holiday as i'm having

ps. tyler is wicked sweet for saying this:
tyler (rbc) says:
you are so different
karissa, burnaby tomorrow night! says:
really?
tyler (rbc) says:
like you are your own special case and always will be
karissa, burnaby tomorrow night! says:
thats one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me
tyler (rbc) says:
no it's not
tyler (rbc) says:
but thanks for.. thinking that? haha
tyler (rbc) says:
I just mean you seem really not young like every other single person your age, and not in the acting-older way either
tyler (rbc) says:
fuck that makes no sense
tyler (rbc) says:
you are fun to be around and I have no negative generalizations to lump you into

snow can piss right the hell off seriously
fucking
cold wet frozen piss is what it is
it makes everything cold and disgusting
FUCK SNOW

tristan came over today, i love tristan

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hollaaa i never use this anymore
but. who does.


i'm reeeeeal stressed lately. i work too much and school is really kicking my ass, haha
i just got my report card.. three c something's and one a. i'm not doing too badly.
but. i barely have time for work and school, let alone anything else,
i really miss going to sidney pretty much every two weeks
and seeing absolutely everyone so often
i kinda wanna quit my job after i finish saving for mexico, but then again, i really don't wanna stop the cash flow. so. i probably won't quit after all.
school is halfway through for the semester, i'm glad about that, because next semester will just be soo simple and chill. love it.
max isn't creeping me anymore. its pretty great watching shireen do the same things i did when he was being creepy around me.. covering her face, making excuses to leave, hahahah poor girl
its so funny now that it isn't happening to me.
i haven't seen creepayyyyy john at the bus stop in a while because i haven't taken the bus to school in a while. go me.
i'm pretty sure i'm interested in a select few guys. they all hang out together, all the time, and i hang out with them a lot as well. hahaha i'm sneaky

lately when i've been really stoned i've picked apart my features and i've come to the conclusion that i am really wierd and awkward
all the characteristics of my face, if alone, would look so out of place
like my nose and my ears and stuff
and just like
i don't know.
my body is pretty wierd too but it's not that i'm unhappy with it
its just different from other girls' bodies. oh well. i can deal with bothadem issues easy peas.

tristan is supposed to come over tomorrow and we're gonna play risk and watch ong bak and pokemon.. i don't know what i'd do without tristan lately
it's just dawned on me that he takes up most of the room in my heart and some of my kidneys, i guess. i love you t.hong. plain and simple.

dave's supposed to be coming over soon, after he showers.. mm dave in the shower. (dave=i've been in love with this kid since grade six and he's one of the guys i mentioned earlier, if you know who he hangs out with you probably know who the other two guys are as well, hah)
i bet i'll never tell him that i love him and it'll just sit inside of me for years and years and years.
we're just gonna be chaaaalllinnn in my room, watching tv, maybe talk about life or something.

my dad picked me and my brother up from school in the motorhome today because my mom blew the back window of our car out this morning, daaang..

i'd mention priya somehow, but i'll come across as a huge bitch and that's just not what i need right now
you're still my best friend. but this isn't your decision.

me and mackenzie always pass notes about people in our socials class and we are actually such huge bitches, hahahaha i love it

i wanna see graydon again soon. i wanna show everyone what i'm really worth.

this is me lately.. i guess.

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Jeah. thats about it.

hahahaha.. i haven't looked at livejournal in soo long
i'm so lazy. but. i have a pretty busy schedule. SORRY LJERS

anyways. uhhh VERY hella quick update. lately=tons of work. tons of school. i haven't seen a lot of people in a long time and i hate it so much. i especially don't get to see tristan and i'm pissed.

a week and a bit ago i hostessed a party for one of my veryyy best friends moving home (well, abbotsford) from ontario. i missed dustin so, so, so much.

this is cade, during a recess sesh. hahaha

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i'm really starting to like my teeth. thhhheeeee end, bitches.

my heart is like a marching band and i'm a fan in the stands
yes i am
and i'm hollerin' hey baaaaby
sayin hey baaaby

i am diggin outkast right now.


i have suuuchhh huge crushes right now.. shit.
someone take me to the dance.
i'll grind you in return



uhhh tristan's a creepy old perv
so is priya
except she's hot

i get to work with chris tonight and tomorrow, i'm hella excited

i haven't talked to jamie in a long time. i am so mad at him.
someone told me he's at rockridge or something this weekend, sweetttt

in other news, i love krista and bayley and maude and suzi and all you fuckin sidney kids holy shit i love you all.
i wish i lived closer and not in lame sooke





and to describe myself, i would first have to destroy myself.

tell me lover, are you lonely?

soo i know i never update anymore.. i probably will a bit more once school starts.

nothing major has happened recently, up until friday night
at maude's "forget me and die" party
miss maude mooney, we're gonna miss you
you beautiful beautiful girl.

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i got really drunk last night too.. at keiran's cabin party in east sooke
me and ashlie currie (who i love so much) stole a lot of ian's beers
and he doesn't know
we're badass
no pictures though. no one had a camera
but we also went through the whole night in our underwear and went hottubbing and had a big heart-to-heart.

other than all that..
i miss jamie. that's a given
but i'm happy with where i am right now. and i'm glad i apologized to him on friday night, and that he hugged me when i went to shake his hand after he changed my bandaid for me
i'm happy he still wants to be friends with me.

i've spent almost all summer with tristan fucking hong and its been the best one yet.
he's coming over today at 4 30 and we're gonna make dinner

priya's home.. i missed her so much
i love you priya.

and to all the sidney kids
you guys are amazing.. i fucking love you all
and i hope we can all hang out more

and and and maude PLEASE VISIT OFTEN I LOVE YOU!!!!!

over and out.

scratch dat scratch dat.

everything's alright now.
iii am content with life and i'm coping with this.
the only thing i'm upset with now, is that summer's almost over!

sorry. this goes from very worst to very best. kind of. it's easy to tell where the bad ends and the good begins. only the first and last entries are really in order. please shoot me if I do another one of these.

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sooo I guess I will make a quick update, since I never get around to it anymore!

I haven't worn makeup in a month. bitches.
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I went camping with christena, her mom karen, and my uncle dave last weekend, it was absolutely amazing, we went to gordon bay at cowichan lake and I got niiicee and tanned. it was SO NICE OUT the entire time. we forgot bug repellant though. thattt sucked. chelsea and shay came to swim with us the second day we were there, they were being pretty big bitches, and they all actually embarassed me a lot, but whatever. it was a great weekend and karen and my uncle dave are getting married in almost a month. YAY!!!
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I got a job at western foods, in the deli, I wanted cashier but when I think about it I would be a terrible cashier! I'm so bad with numbers. I'm really happy about this. this means I can save up money for a lot of things this summer, aka vancouver, feist concert, clothes, etc etc. oh and tons of food. my shirt is hella baggy and kind of uncomfortable but I'll get used to it. I also got a western foods vest and I get a hairnet soon.. lol. I'M EXCITED FOR THAT PART!
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I have a science exam tomorrow morning and I'm definitely going to bomb it. which probs means I'll fail the class. eeeuughhh I have to study so hard tonight, I'm so bad at chemistry and physics, yack! but then school is done. and I don't have to worry about it annnyyy more. (well until september)

after the exam I'm gonna go to sidney and see jamie because I haven't seen him since the saturday before last saturday, I'm really excited for that, we're doing really well and its been about three and a half months. yayyyy.

on that note, I never made a post about june5th, the most AMAZING night of my life. wow. bright eyes changed my life. I've been in love with that man's voice for three years and seeing him live and on stage, a hundred feet away from me, blew my mind. not to mention I was surrounded by some of my absolute favorite people!
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anyways this is getting hella long.

OH PS TRISTAN CAME OVER YESTERDAY TO TAN WITH ME. we've taken a lot of pictures lately.
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NEW NEXOPIA
bisonours
ask me if I like you enough to add it.

fuck fifteen.

1) you. you are the most important factor in my life and I want to keep it that way. you make me happier than I knew I could be, you let me dump all my problems on you and you do an amazing job of getting me back into a good mood. I know I always forget what I want to tell you but I do my best of remembering. it's hard for me to put things into words, and that's what the shiny gold house is for, you'll see, soon enough. sdghsdhfhasfbsdfasdkasdjfsgfsjdfdsg'lsdgk;sdf'dfkm lsdfjasdlsdfg. 1/5

2) you pretty much complete my life in every way. you're the best friend I ever had and I love you with every little molecule in my heart, and possibly some in my kidneys. it's hard for me to remember not knowing you, and not seeing you every weekend, and not being dumb as fuck with you all the time. my lamp makes whirring noises, not my computer. and I'm pretty sure you know that I LOVE YOU!! 1/5

3) culture sandwich sugar, I'm the white bread, you're the roast beef, and tristan's the yellow mustard. we just need a green person to fill the slot of lettuce man. YOU ARE HONESTLY the FUNNIEST person I have ever met and you're so lovable and cute and sdfhdfg you're seriously amazing to me and you've helped me through so much of my catty moods and I can't thank you enough. I love you with my heart and soul and I'll see you soon. 1/5

4) I love you. making dinner at your house is pretty much the most fun thing ever, even if I do sit on bugs and pick up dead things to throw them at your kitties. you've been one of my very best friends since kindergarten (when you used to be skinny, ha) and that's never going to change because I'm not going to let it. you skip the classes you have with me too much, I miss you too much when you don't go. I love you. 1/5

5) if you die, I'm going to need every pair of arms to hold me up, you're my entire life and I don't know how I'm gonna be when someone I've grown up with is gone. daisy mae is going to be devastated.

6) I can honestly say that you have stayed the same and I've changed, I know I have. you never knew this but I've been jealous of you the ENTIRE TIME I've known you, for one reason only, you may be skinny and blonde and perfect on the outside but I have a much better emotional life than you do so I'm not that worried about that anymore. I still love you a lot and you're a really amazing person (in person) but sometimes I just can't handle how much you try to emulate me. it gets old. fast.

7) I really miss you, I miss going up sooke at one in the morning because we couldn't get to sleep so we set up my camera in the middle of the main road and tried to take a picture of our butts but it was too dark. I miss flaming lepers and watching mean girls at your house. I miss everything about you and it does hurt that I wasn't invited to your birthday party, considering it was "close friends only" according to natalie and I thought I was one. I love you a lot, I wish I was able to see you more, but summer's gonna change that.

8 ) it's wierd how small the world is. you babysat one of my good friends while you both lived on the mainland, and now you're one of my best best friends, you've helped me through a lot of crappy things and I couldn't love you more. we're going camping after the wedding and we're going to sneak off onto the beach and just love. I wish I saw you every day so I could hug you and kiss you and take you for vegan spring rolls, I love you, I love you, I love you. I'm sorry about the phone call, and waking you.

9) I never see you anymore, I saw you a lot when you hung out with tristan1 and tristan2, but now you don't and that means no you for me. penis noses are ugly. I'm thankful for matthew good, and john stamos, and you're my kitty. I love you.

10) I'm over you, I have been for a long time, I was never really that into you to begin with. only priya knows about this and I wish I knew about it when I was dating you. I hate it, but I need to thank you for opening me up, and for teaching me things that I love. I'm still here for you, but hanging out with you would just be too awkward, smoking pot reminds me of you because you're the one that started me on it and that's why I quit. I wish I could say I missed you a little, but I really, really don't.

11) you are one of the most amazing people I've ever met and the way you dress doesn't matter at all to me. I'd never take a second glance at you in a bad way. I think it's wierd that I love you so much and never loved your brother, I lied to myself and to him and you are one of the only people I can talk to about that because you know him as well as I do. missing you makes me realize how much I need you in my life to be happy. all I want for you is to be happy with your life and with yourself, you deserve every good thing that comes your way, and more. I miss and love you with everything I have. lets make a giant cookie.

12) I did care a lot about you, I'm not sure if I ever loved you, but it sure seemed like it at the time. I'm not all that worried about why you stopped calling anymore. I forgive you. happy belated 16th birthday, lots of love shoves.

13) we're both going to bright eyes with our favorite person in the world, and I really hope I see you. you used to hate me for no reason and I can't remember when you started to like me, I think chris convinced you. either way I love you now, I never get to see you though, I wish you went up sooke more when you lived with alisha and you would've called me so there would have been love. lots of it. your life means a lot to me and I never want to grow apart from you. no lies, just love.

14) I couldn't care less if you want me back, if you want to "hang out" with me, because you were a bastard when I was dating you, after I dated you, and now. cheating can't be apologized for. you weren't drunk and you weren't in an irregular state of mind. I was just ugly and awkward and I really can't blame you for doing it but that was grade eight and I can forgive you, please, just stop phoning me. I don't need you in my life anymore. sorry, mr martel.

15) to sum it up? you're a huge jerk and I have no idea what you meant by "I'm tired of your shit." I'm not a very dramatic person, I don't have a very dramatic life, and I thought I was your best friend. you were mine. I still see you sometimes and I always want to tell you I'm sorry for what I did, but I know you won't accept it and you probably never will. I hope you and sam do well. you're a good man, to very select people, and I used to be one of them. I hope you know how amazing I was to you, and that you miss me, because I'm never coming back to you.

16) I'm sorry for apologizing. you're the one that needs to apologize to me.

17) I wish you never drowned, I wish you never left me and I wish you were still here to be with me.

18) sdgfdf just because you're not at the top of the list doesn't mean you're not the most important person of my entire life. you're perfect, even if you have FAS, you're perfect you're perfect you're amazing and my whole world. I love sneeping up on you and sitting on big gross green bugs. stop stealing the front seat. don't even THINK of leaving me, because I'll track you down. I love you!

19) your eyebrows asdhgsdf hahahahahahahahahaha I love them. your brother is really fucking wierd, I wish my brother dragged dead deer home.. no I don't. you've been one of my best friends since grade six and a friend before that. mr roberts, I love you, and falling into rabbit holes, and airbrushed nipples. fo lyffe.

20) I LOVE YOU. honestly you are one of the only people in life I can tell ANYTHING AT ALL without feeling wierd or different, because I know you've been through some of it, too. I taught you how to square-dance and you wouldn't sell me your shoes. I'm so glad I met you, had a crush on you (and as a result got a sunburn that gave me a tan that I still have), and realized I could never date you because that would just ruin our friendship. you are one of my favorite people and I promise to see you more, you're sitting on my other side at bright eyes, I'm going to be in the middle of an amazing person sandwich. I love you!!!

21) you're so little and so fucking cute and I love you. I'm happy I told you about bright eyes because now you're sitting right down the row from me!! I hope we hang out more because I think we'd be hella tight. you're the cutest ever, I love you girl.

22) one word: psycho. I never needed you in my life and I hate how much you tried to push yourself into it, then hated me, then pushed in again, then sent my boyfriend a psycho message. I'm done with you, I was done with you to begin with, you did nothing but cause drama in my life. don't talk to me and don't talk to jamie. oh and also, when jay tries to dump you, let him. hahahahahaha. he doesn't deserve you.

23) I just don't know what to say about you, other than you're fucking stupid.

today is hard, it's been really really hard for me, today marks a year since I last spoke to sam and today I got my time of the month and today I can't talk to jamie because of younglife and today has just been pure shit.

I haven't done any homework this weekend, and I have a lot, fuck.

jamie slept over last night.
asfhgsdgdfg!

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he left this morning, I went for a walk on the beach with my family.

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THEN I HUNG OUT WITH TROY AND WE PICKED UP DEAD STUFF


then I had dinner with my grandparents

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lower balcony, row d, twenty five days.
I love life.